I lost someone again. My uncle at his age 76, the oldest brother of my father. He was the nicest relative to us of the whole family. He was so kind and so generous to us all the time. I don’t really feel like writing something sad. Just .. I thought, I tried to remember and to keep him a space in my brain from this moment.

Thank you, Dear big uncle if you could still hear. You left us for accompanying grandma and grandpa in the heaven we appreciated for that no matter how unwilling we let you go.

Another sad thing is my hope for Davos failed. My dream is still I want working where other people go on vacation. But I know exactly that I am not qualified for that position I applied for at my age and my experiences. I still wanna give it a try, without this chance as a motive I would never ever step out  even though I so much wanna change my life. The truth is we cant plan anything or maybe we dont always need a plan. Sometimes all we need is to calm down , to  breath, to trust, to let go, to wait and see what happens. I do hope it is not a period for Davos but a question mark for this time frame with unlimited possibilities.

Tonight I am alone and feel down actually. I bought new stuff and the food which are the ways I used to bring myself some comfort. This time doesnt work unfortunately. Although it’s a good thing in a way, I could totally enjoy my holidays there without worrying anything about works. My lungs and brain could have 100%  carefree time for a recover. That counts definately and they deserve it absolutely.